So I have to share with you how God is just so amazing. How personal and sweet His grace is. Normally, I would not want to share my emotional melt downs on social media but I am convicted by some of the truths we learned in our bible study this week. This week our lessons were on the lies women believe about our emotions. One of them being, we can not control our emotions. Well I am here to tell that this one has been a hard one for me for many years…we can and we should because we can choose to.
Easter Sunday was an exciting day for our church in that we celebrated Jesus’ resurrection and we provided an Easter Egg Hunt for the children. I was super excited for them all. I brought my camera (I am not a professional and am still learning the settings) and proceeded to take pictures of everything. I recorded one of the older boys helping me lay the eggs in our roped off area, the kids coming out to the area with their Easter baskets. I took shots of families walking, talking and laughing. I tried to snap every kid picking up eggs and I even took some family portrait shots by the tree with the “Happy Easter” sign. I was so excited to see my images. And then on the very last picture of the day, I thought, I will just check this picture.
When I tell you my heart fainted, it would be an understatement. I had taken some pictures the day before on Manual settings for low lighting and forgot to change back to Auto. So every picture I clicked was still in my head because they were completely white on my camera. Tears welled up in my eyes because I was completely deflated. I made a big deal about it for several minutes.
Of course my special friend, you know who you are, teased me about missing their kid on his most special day. LOL And others were supportive and kind. My daughter and another young lady immediately said they would send me the pictures off their phones. And so I acquiesced. It was done and there was nothing I could do about it. But I was so disappointed I could not stop talking about it.
What did I do? I cleaned up, put everything away and proceeded to cry on my ride home. Don’t ask me why I cried. I really could not say, other than I built this whole thing up in my head and was super excited for this day. It was our first egg hunt, there were families that had not had a holiday together for a long time. And my grand-daughters were there. I wanted it to be special and it was.
I said all that to say this…When I finally received all the pictures from the ladies who took the pictures, I got to see the kids faces, I cried again. Oh boy. I went to post them on our church website and in searching for a verse to speak to the event of the day I found one and it spoke directly to ME!
11 For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
The Lord will give grace and glory;
No good thing will He withhold
From those who walk uprightly.
Blessed is the man who trusts in You!
He fills us with warmth and love, (He gives us gifts to use for Him) He protects us (from ourselves and others) He gives glory and grace (through all the blessings we receive) God withholds no good thing from those who love Him (He provided the pictures through others) He blesses those who trust in Him (the smiles on the kids faces and the parents smiling watching them)
Can you believe it?
Yep, that is my God!