OH MY GOODNESS!!!!
There are times when I keep asking God the same question over and over again. It is usually when something is too big for me to grasp. A problem that becomes a thorn in my flesh. Something that begins to consume my mind and then my heart and for a minute I turn my eyes away from Jesus. Begging with questions, why, what, how and when.
This past Sunday I once again had the privilege of teaching the children attending our church during the regular service. Last week our lesson was about being obedient to God. Our Bible verse was Psalm 119:11, ‘Thy word have I hidden in my heart so that I might not sin against thee.’ We continued in the same theme but with a different story. Joshua and the walls of Jericho. I enjoyed drawing the kids into the conversation about how tall the walls might have been. (we chose Hobby Lobby as our reference, it was the tallest building we could think of in our area) Then we chatted about how wide they were, wide enough to have a house inside, after all people lived in the wall. And then we drew an imaginary line around the area where we live so that we might envision how big the city actually was.
The whole discussion was basically about how daunting it might have been for us to trust God in walking around the city without speaking one word all the while trying to picture how God was actually going to bring those walls down. We discovered from His word that because of Joshua and the people’s obedience, God did it with trumpet and shout…the walls came tumbling down. There was certainly more to the lesson but for now that was the gist of it.
These thoughts bring me back to the questions I ask God when there is something in my life I am having difficulty with. These past few weeks I have been having an inner struggle, not so much about obedience but how to handle my emotions, where to put my frustration and what action I am to take in regards to this “thorn.” Do I take it to the Lord only or do I share it with someone? My husband, a friend perhaps? I kept thinking there must be an example in the bible that speaks to this very thing. And of course, it does.
God has brought plenty of scripture to mind but it never seemed to be a complete answer for me. I probably over analyze everything but I needed something more from God. I am not sure exactly what I was hoping to get from Him, His word is pretty clear on most subjects. However I think I needed an example, not just words telling me what I already know. I wanted to see someone else who might have dealt with the same struggle and I wanted to see how they handled it. I wanted to be inspired.
And so God has done just that. He has not knocked the walls down yet but I trust He will. For the answer is JESUS, himself, duh! He is the example. God had given me the scripture last week as to the action Jesus took when He was being degraded and belittled. Jesus trusted His father in that situation, He trusted God to work His glory through His bad situation. In a book I am currently reading by Tony Evans, he says, ” Let your trust carry out in your actions. Let your faith show up in your feet.”
“For you have been called for this purpose, since Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example for you to follow in His steps, who committed no sin, nor was any deceit found in His mouth; and while being reviled, He did not revile in return; while suffering, He uttered no threats, but kept entrusting Himself to Him who judges righteously; and He Himself bore our sins in His body on the cross.
1 Peter 2:21-24a
Through this particular book, which by the way has nothing to do with my struggle, God spoke to my spirit. ‘If you want to see the walls tumble-down then you must trust and obey. If you want to see my Glory, then you must trust and obey. If you want this to change in your heart and mind, then you must trust and obey.’
While this is not a new truth to me it is new when applied to the thorn I have carried for some time. It once again proves that God’s word is living and always relevant. There is just not a big enough wall that God can not crumble to the ground. He is just too much for me sometimes, I am overwhelmed by how personal He is!!! Amen, Amen and Amen
Grace to you,