There are just some truths you can not escape. The fact that the past always catches up to you and really tries hard to overtake you. That Satan does not like it when you are happy and full of the joy of the Lord. And last but certainly not least that even if you try to do everything right at some point someone will twist it into a wrong.
This past year has been a whirlwind of God’s grace and blessings. Along with that there have been some very sobering moments. I have to stop and ask God, literally, “What do I do with this?” I already know from God’s Word how to respond to the most difficult circumstances but I do not often know what do with it. For instance, when someone says something hurtful it often becomes a ping-pong ball inside your mind. Back and forth it goes…or maybe it is closer to a VCR, rewind, play, rewind, play. I learned a really long time ago when I began my walk with God that in order to overcome the negative, destructive thoughts, you had to replace them with God’s Word.
The battle becomes easier if God’s Word is already in your mind and heart. You don’t have to take the time to look it up in scripture because you have hidden it in your heart. Which is why King David said, “Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.” Psalm 119:11 I believe that when we do not turn to His Word for counsel we most often will react in sin to a situation. And that is exactly what I have prayed to God to guard me from. I am not Jesus but I want to be like Him. Just as he stood in front of His accusers and said not a word. “And when he was accused of the chief priests and elders, he answered nothing.” Matthew 27:12
I am not setting myself up as a saint but God knows my heart and what my intentions are and always have been. I am nothing without my Father however I am the daughter of a King, a child of the living Holy God who has chosen me from before the foundation of the earth. He is my judge, my defender, my high tower, my refuge. I know who He says I am and I believe Him!!!
There is nothing on this earth that can change those facts regardless of what anyone says about me, to me or behind my back. The truth is that God will be their judge as well and that is more than sobering to me. I shudder at that very truth and pray for God to intervene in their lives, to show them His love before it is too late. I pray because He tells me to pray for my enemies. The hardest thing for us to do, perhaps. But in praying we set loose on earth what is in heaven….His glory!!!!!
grace to you