Heart of Texas – The Movie

Last night I watched a movie (documentary) about a story of forgiveness, the likes which I have never seen!  If you can get a hold of this DVD (see link below) it will be well worth the time and expense.  As I was watching this movie the thought kept running through my mind…we always look for God in the mountain moving moments, the departing sea kind of event but never in a tragedy that pierces the deepest part of a soul.  What I witnessed in this account was just that, God and all His mercy and grace!!! You have got to see this movie!!!!

The Heart of Texas

"So seldom do you find a story that is so
heartbreaking, and yet so uplifting. The Heart of Texas is an
astonishing film that everyone should see."
Josh D. McDowell
Author and Speaker

"The
Heart of Texas provides a cinematic experience that will last long
after the viewing, a true tale of loss and redemption that will become
a part your life."
Ron Maxwell
Writer-Director of Gettysburg and Gods & Generals

"I
loved this story the first time I saw it….an incredible documentary
on the awesome power of God’s love that everyone needs to see."
Chuck Norris
Actor/Producer/Author of the N.Y.Times Bestseller Blackbelt Patriotism

"Down
through history, human beings have been wired for stories of sacrifice,
courage, redemption and forgiveness. Every man, woman and child has
been created with soul-strings running through their lives that
reverberate with meaning and power when plucked by certain stories. The
Heart of Texas is one of those stories, an unforgettable miracle that
would seem almost unbelievable — if it were not 100 percent true.
Don’t miss this story. Let it change your life."
Brian Bird, Co-Executive Producer of Touched By An Angel


"An unforgettable story of forgiveness."


Michael Landon, Jr. Director/Producer

"Forgiveness is the beginning of the journey Christians take toward
spiritual transformation. This movie gives us a clear glimpse of taking
the possible and making it the actual. It’s a must see!"
Dr. Larry Crabb, Best-selling Author and Speaker

"My wife and I wept with joy as we watched this wonderful film. This is a film that will bring hope to America".
Dr. Rick Scarborough, Pastor & Founder of Vision America

"Watch this Film. It will change your life!"
Reggie Dabbs, Author, Motivational Speaker

"This story will move your heart, change your life, and give you hope
in the potential for true redemption in a fallen world."
Greg Stier, President, Dare2Share Ministries

Bragging on Brodie & his peeps

 

I have been sorting pictures and making a scrapbook album called “Grandmother’s Album”  kind of like I did for the album I made with all my children in it…called it “Mother’s Album”.  I am so excited to put all the pictures of Brodie’s two and half years.  He is precious.  There are pics in this slide show of all his grandparents and some of his aunts and uncles.  I could only put so many in the slide…but it is worth looking at…He is just too cute!!!  I love being a grandmother…..Red heart

After thought to Goodnight Sweetheart….

This is an afterthought to my recent post
Goodnight Sweetheart

As
I was writing it I began to cry a little remembering how hard things
were for me raising my kids alone.  Remembering good things sometimes
brings up the bad, I am not sure why that is but I can imagine that is
where the saying "bittersweet" comes from. 


One of the
memories was my first divorce and how it all came about.  It has been
about 19 years since.  I can hardly believe it was half a life time
ago.  Anyway a few days have passed since writing that post and a few
more thoughts have come to mind..


First, I am so grateful for
the Lord coming into my life.  I look back and on the way I handled
things and cringe.  While some of what I experienced was difficult to
be sure and I was pregnant (hormone galore) I so wished I had just kept
my mouth shut.  I wish I had accepted the loss and not reacted.  I wish
that I had the wisdom to keep my dignity in tact.  And so with God’s
love came forgiveness…forgiveness of myself and others for all that
occurred.  There has been great peace in my life and heart for that
gift of forgiveness.


Second, they say that what does not kill
you only makes you stronger.  I am not so sure about that but I do know
that I did not die.  My heart died, to some extent, but again with God,
there has been healing and restoration to that end.  I can say that
because of that pain I have more compassion on others.  Others who
suffer heartache from divorce, loss or betrayal.  I firmly believe in
the saying "but for grace there go I"….


Back then I did not
know that I would endure things far worse by comparison in the future
but as with God, He worked all things together for my good.  It seems
that when one loses another wins but if we trust God we do not have to
look at life that way we can just know that one day, in Heaven, none of
this will matter throughout eternity. 

Grace to you all
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Goodnight Sweetheart

Book - Love you forever

Love You Forever

 

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Theresa R  reminded me of something in her post today…it touched my heart.  The little conversations we have with our children as they grow up.  I remember  consciously wanting my children to know that I liked them as much as I loved them.  They were born during a time when the psychology of the day was “I’m Ok, Your OK”.  Self Esteem issues came on the scene in the guise of us ‘making friends with ourselves.’  My generation ( I think) started this “we have to like ourselves” thing.  It was during this time that I came to know Christ (late 80’s early 90’s).  So I was beginning to discover that it was not all about me but about Him.  The thing was, as a young Christian, I was filtering much of what I learned through the things I had experienced growing up (60’s early 70’s) and the world’s way of looking at things.  You know love yourself…. Eye-rolling

I am grateful that God’s grace is sufficient for young, new Christians learning to walk in His principles and truths.  I found a book that was published in 1986 but did not discover it until my first child was a toddler.  It was called “LOVE YOU FOREVER.”  It was a children’s book, it had a profound effect on me as a mother of a son.  It made me kind of sad to realize my children would be growing up and leaving me.  Even then I was thinking way too far ahead.Crying  Another thing that the book did was cause me to consider the type of mother I would be.  How was I going to show my children I loved them on a daily basis, how was I going to teach them this consistently?  

As a young woman and mother, I was still dealing with all the “self esteem” issues of my childhood.  My parents loved me, I knew that, but their divorce tore a hole in my heart and life that would come to effect everything in my future.  I am certain many who come from broken homes can attest to this. It is one of the truths that many of the world refuses to accept, the consequenses of divorce.  Of all the issues that plagued me, the one that deeply affected me was one particular question:  Was I loved or liked, for that matter?  It would take many paragraphs to go into the reasons why that question was behind every action and motive I had in my young adulthood but that is for another time….  So here I was a single divorced mother myself who had taken another blow to my ego when my first husband left me for another woman. Broken heart  My son was 2 yrs old and my daughter was 2 mos from being born when he left. 

So it was in reading this book that I had determined, as a single mother, that the few things I could give me children was

  1. a certainty in they would know they were indeed loved and liked, not only by God but by me
  2. and that no matter what happened in their life that God and I would be there for them

I was determined to fill the hole in their lives (even though they were yet aware)  and the book inspired me to pass this on to them as well as the new things the Heavenly Father was teaching me.  Forgiveness, patience and hope for our futures.  I wish I could tell you that all of that made up for the loss they would later understand but as with all disappointments in our life God has to be the one to do the healing and restoring. And once again His grace is sufficient. Rainbow 

This memory took me back to the day I had read the book for the first time to little Ben (Benji, when he was little).  I wanted him to remember what I read to him so I  made up a tune to go along with the words in the book.  After reading the story I would then sing the song while kissing him goodnight and turning out the lights. 

I love you forever, I like you for always, as long as I’m living, my baby you’ll be. Note

Of course then I had to make up another song to say goodnight.

Goodnight sweetheart, goodnight sweetheart, good night to you, goodnight, sweet dreams, I love you.  Good night sweet baby.Note

Then I would close the door to a crack.  Later I would sing it to my daughter and then all my children as I put each one to bed. 

I don’t remember when I stopped singing it but I do remember singing it to my grandson once when visiting him last year about this time.  It struck me as funny, I still remembered the tune… 

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Brodie – my grandson Easter 2009 in California

I know my children know I love them, I know they know I like them and I do believe they are learning that God loves them more than I.  Two of my children are adults now and two are teenagers, but as the years go by I keep looking back on the days when I held them and sang to them…just as the mother does in the book.  It makes me cry some times knowing that I will be alone soon for these years go by so very fast.  Even now the emotion of letting go is overwhelming.

I won’t spoil the end of the book for those of you who have not read it but I will tell you this…I pray that I loved and liked my children enough that one day when I am old and can not get around that they will be the ones singing to me, kissing me goodnight and hearing them say, “Goodnight sweetheart!”
Sleeping half-moon

 

Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little. Luke 7:47

Grace to you all,
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THE SOLUTION

Sorrow

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Tears cried

Left aside

Life alone

This day is gone

 

 

 

Emptiness

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Desire rages

Forgotten days

Life short

This year is gone

 

 

 

Despair

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Sadness wells

Future dark

Life regrets

This decade gone

 

 

 

Dying

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Dreams die

Aging youth

Life takes

This life is gone

 

 

 

Salvation

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God wakes

Hope eternal

Life gives

This life is His

 

 

 

written by Michelle M. Padilla

April 7, 2009