Then on my way to work the radio kept mentioning Valentines Day…that just brought forward to my mind some thoughts I had stored in the back of my mind some time ago….
Valentines Day is the day of romance…I am 46 years old and I can truly say it
has never been a romantic day for me…the ones I do remember I
remember for very different reasons….my first divorce was final on
this day in 1991 and my second marriage was devastated on this day in
2004 also ending…
If I had to tell someone what the most romantic day of my life would be I would tell them of the time I was home from Germany on 30 days leave and my then boyfriend sent me a
dozen roses from overseas with the sweetest note, I also received a letter from him. It surprised me and it made my heart melt. I remember thinking at that moment, I would spend the rest of my life with him. As romantic as that was, little did I know that I was
wrong….just so you know I am not bitter but regretful that I did not make better decisions with my life and in my relationships.
I think some people are never meant to know what kind of earthly love.
God may want them all to Himself….I am kind of hoping I am wrong.
Now when reading this post in conjunction with my most recent post, Companions and Paths you can understand where the battle lies…in the mind. These are real and honest thoughts that I bet a million lonely souls are having this day. Some are bitter, some are hurting, some are smiling, pretending it doesn’t matter, and then there are some that really do not care.
When I mention “lonely souls,” I am not just considering singles….but all those who have an empty ache inside of them, that desperately want someone “on earth” to show them that they are loved and cared for. The ironic thing God created us with a very desperate, empty ache. It is a hole. I believe it is in the shape of a heart. It is in the shape of God. God’s heart. So He could be the one to fill it!
LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with
an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3