The passage Matthew 8 is so timely to me this week…my 11 year old son, Sam and I have
been having conversations about God and His existence. Sam has had some disappointments lately that
have caused some doubt to creep into his mind about God. This was serious to him and he did not want
me to be upset. But he did want me to
I myself do not question God’s existence nor even His
presence but privately have questioned what His will is in a particular area of
my life. In trying to discuss with my
son the doubts he is having I am finding some things too difficult to
explain. I mean some of what I know is
only through experience. He says to me,
when the discussion is over his head, “my head is full!” That is my cue to back up. I have tried to teach my children that God is
not a magician. But trying to teach them
who and what He is, sometimes makes my head “full!”
In going to God’s Word I find something that I can show
Sam. I find a recounting of grown men
who doubted the Lord, who were afraid when a storm came upon them even with
Christ in their midst. Not to mention
the fact that they had just witnessed miracle after miracle following a
Can you imagine those first days after hearing Jesus speak
for the first time? The moment one became mesmerized by his wisdom and his air
of authority. Both of which would have
been hard to miss by those who could sense they were in the presence of
something Holy. I would have like to
been a person in the "multitude" coming down off the mountain after
his sermon, following him, wanting to know more. Wanting to see more and hear more. That is how
a good message from God’s Word moves me. It makes me hungry to know Him more.
Those following Jesus that day got to see more…they saw
miracles. The healing of the leper, the healing of the Centurion’s servant,
healing of Peter’s mother-in-law and the two men possessed of devils. Can you
even fathom what was going through the minds of those witnessing the two men
being set free and becoming normal, while witnessing the swine throwing
themselves off a cliff?
In my discussion I had with Sam I spent several minutes
recounting all the things God had done for our family throughout his 11
years. As I was listing them I felt my
heart begin to understand something that really had not occurred to me. The disappointment I have often felt in not
getting what my heart desired or what my mind believed it should get was merely
a sign of un-surrender(if that is a word?)
I don’t necessarily believe it to be rebellion as much as I think it to
be ignorance of what can be accomplished through spiritual death of “dying to
self.” Just allowing God to do His will
with no “but”!
What if I never doubted?
What if I never questioned? Has
there ever been a person who never did?
Did it occur to anyone that Jesus questioned His father? “My
God, My God, why has thou forsaken me?” I
for one have asked that question in grief and even with the gut wrenching
effort it took for me to utter those words, would not even compare to the depth
of Christ’s grief on the cross. What is
it that God placed into each man that causes us to doubt and question? How do I explain that to a child?
The disciples went with Jesus on the ship, which found itself in the midst of a
storm (tempest) being covered by waves. Even after all that they witnessed, the
disciples were afraid and went to Jesus and cried out to Him. Did their actions show doubt or faith? If they had faith that Jesus could protect
them, then why did they fear in the first place? What were they questioning, certainly not His
ability, because He is after all the one they went to for help. I believe, and this is my opinion, that they
were questioning His willingness. Would
He do it? Do we deserve it? Can we trust Him to do it?
This is where I believe God shows us if we are surrendered
or not. If we trust completely, if we
know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He loves us enough to protect, provide and
care for us when the storm comes then why would fear enter into our minds at
What did the Lord do?
He arose, rebuked the wind & sea and then all was calm. This they marveled
at! This caused them to ask themselves, finally after all they had seen, what
manner of man is this that the wind and sea obey?
What will it take in our lives to not only marvel at the Son of God but to so
trust Him that there would be no questions in our minds at all?
And that is what I told Sammy.
Grace to you all…
PS…this was the Bible verse for today on Biblegateway…go figure!
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.”