Bring The Rain

I was listening to the radio today on my way home from work and the song "Bring The Rain" by Mercy Me came on.  It has become one of my favorites…I had heard it the first couple of times they played it but had not really listened to all the words.   When I finally got to listen I was touched by the surrender in the words.  They speak of a place where I have been for quite some time.   I and my children have been through so much in the last 3 years that would have destroyed the faith of many lesser Christians.  I have had many people tell me that they are amazed at my faithfulness to continue to worship and praise Him.  While I take that as encouragement to keep going forward at times, I am completely dumbfounded that some people would marvel at that because as Christians isn’t that what we are suppose to do?  I simply tell them I have had my moments when I could not even look up or pray, let alone utter Thank you, Lord.  Even so, He has showered my family and I with so much grace, I so often write about, that 3 years ago I couldn’t even fathom what that would have looked like in my life.  How the storms that we endured would bring glory to Him. Just as the singer sings: "It’s never really ever crossed my mind, To turn my back on you, oh Lord, My only shelter from the storm, But instead I draw closer through these times…"  I find myself falling more in love with the Father who is my sunshine after the rain! 

 

                                                                                                   

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Bring The Rain
Artist(Band):MercyMe

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I’ve gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It’s never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there’ll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that’s what it takes to    

Praise You Jesus, bring the rain

 

                    

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I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain

[1st Chorus]

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I’m forever singing 
[2nd Chorus 2x]

everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy
[2nd Chorus 2x]

                                                                                                              

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The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.

Jeremiah 31:3

Color Me With Grace!

Ok I had a blessed week.  God used many to encourage me.  Friends from church, work and even bloggerville.  Each had a dash of wisdom and a color of love to share with me.  There are days when you look at your life and you think you are running in place.  Not making any distance.   But then there are days and you look around thinking how did I get here so fast.  I know our lives are planned by God, for he says so in His Word.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.  Jeremiah 29:11

He is so faithful to spell it out for us in His Word when we can’t understand where God has us or is leading us.   One of the things I absolutely love about God is how colorful He is.  When He created the heavens and the earth he used every color imaginable….infinite arrays of colors and textures.  Even when He created man!  This week two things happened that changed my point of view about some things occurring in my life.  This understanding added new colors to my life painting….

First, when I said in my last blog "It is like every door I walk to I find to be closed and locked. Family, Friends, ministry, communicating with my children….it is a small room, just me and God!" , that was not true.  And God let me know that is was not true by some of the lessons I learned during my bible study this week. And I am not in a small room, while the door seemed to be locked it was not, in fact all I had to do was knock.  Guess who opened it?   Oh, I know what some of you are thinking, that is just too simple….seek and you shall find, knock and the door shall be open unto you…but any of you reading this who is in that place where you feel like you have no where else to turn…no way out or around a place.  I dare you to knock.  Then look up!  I am actually not even in a room, I am in the world, where He called me.  It isn’t small really, it is huge!  I can’t control what goes on around me but I can control what goes on inside me.  By simply trusting in Him, standing firm in my faith and believing Him at His Word. I heard you fellow blogger’s!!! SO I DID!

And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.  Romans 8:28-29

You ever hear these sayings….

Green with envy

Red with anger

Black hearted fellow

…in a blue mood

ok you get the picture…which brings me to the second thing that happened to me this week to changed my point of view. It had to do with the color of our lives… I was studying in 1 Samuel 18, reading about the friendship between Jonathon and David and I looked up the commentary about the passage I was reading.  I wanted to share that with you all.  

The friendship of David and Jonathan was the effect of Divine grace, which produces in true believers one heart and one soul, and causes them to love each other. This union of souls is from partaking in the Spirit of Christ. Where God unites hearts, carnal matters are too weak to separate them. Those who love Christ as their own souls, will be willing to join themselves to him in an everlasting covenant. It was certainly a great proof of the power of God’s grace in David, that he was able to bear all this respect and honor, without being lifted up above measure. (1Sa 18:6-11) from the Biblegateway commentary

When I read it, it made me think of all the people God brings into our lives.  How they color our lives.  The good relationships probably represent the bright colors in some sort of pleasing to the eye arrangement, while the difficult relationships represent the darker colors that may seem foreboding and wanting.  But after reading the commentary and the viewing the picture below sometime later…you can see how God uses all the colors to make something beautiful.  Just the way He does with our lives…  HE COLORS US WITH GRACE!

God is Love!

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Lately, I have been very shook up.  While God has been revealing himself to me every day in some small, intimate way, I have been simultaneously wondering what is going on around me.

The enemy is trying to defeat me through the very thing God has called me to be, a Mother.  Being a single mother, I have no back up, when it comes to my home.  I am it!  So if I fail them, which there are signs to that end, then what?

I have heard it said your children are a reflection of their parents.  If that is true, then I am in big trouble with the Lord.  I say that because I can not be objective, try as I might; there is no other point of view for me because I take everything personally.  That is my nature.

Just within the last 7 days, I feel as if I am actually losing my mind.  I pray and the heat gets hotter.  When I stop praying, I panic.  Every word that comes out of my mouth makes absolutely no sense to those around me (or to me for that matter).  It is like every door I walk to I find to be closed and locked.  Family, Friends, ministry, communicating with my children….it is a small room, just me and God!

Another thought occurred to me, God is just trying to remodel my heart?  Is He trying to "grow" me again?  Shake up those areas in my life that I have grown fearful in or selfish about.  I know God does not give us the "spirit of fear" but I am gripped with uncertainty in everything.  What ever this is, IT HURTS!

He wants my obedience, my faithfulness, of this I am sure.  But what specific area, I am hesitating to ask.  Not because of what it might be but I am unsure that I would have the strength and courage to obey or I won’t understand what it is He wants of me.  Does that make sense?  Frankly, it does not make sense to me because I know that God’s commands are clear.

So then what would make it hard for me to discern what His will is for me?  Sin in my life, lack of submission or complacency?  I just don’t know!  I need an objective eye…someone who will point out the places that are ok, the places that need improvement or change and the places that I just need to leave alone.

Here are the things that I do know right now…

·        He is present

·        He is faithful

·        He provides

·        He loves me

·        He loves my children

·        He is right

·        He is all I have!

 

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The Gangs all here…

 

My son and his wife are back in Texas for a while…they left 1 year ago today, on their wedding day, to live in North Carolina for a while.  Only this trip they came back with their son…my grandbaby.  He is a sight to behold.  He is a happy baby and he is loved!  It is wonderful having them here.  So our house is full.   I love it! 🙂 The more the merrier!

 

                                                 

We had a fourth of July celebration at our house and invited some long time friends of ours over.  We have known them for about 5 years.  Both of our families have been through so much together and it was a blessing to be together for fellowship and rejoicing.  For me it was about coming through a storm and seeing my kids on the other side, happy and healthy.  And for my friends family it was wonderful to see her surrounded by her children who love her dearly.  We both are single mothers and trying to provide for our families.  Our friendship was born out of several things.  Need for emotional support during a time in our lives when it seemed like everything around us was falling apart.  And a huge love for our children.  Both of our sons are best friends.  They have stuck by each other through thick and thin. They both knew each other before God got a hold of their hearts.  Although they each took a different path they both are now married to beautiful women who love the Lord.  My friend and I have the hope of our children keeping Christ first in their hearts and lives.  Because we have tried, against all odds, to make our homes honor the Lord.  Which has not been easy. The enemy would see us and our children completely destroyed.  So he comes at us through our weakest area, the love of our children. 

                                         Just as in most families there were disagreements, misunderstandings and hurts, but the Lord has a purpose for those.  We each have walked in different shoes that have formed and shaped our point of view. And I believe God wants us to learn and teach each other what the unconditional love of Christ is all about.  I believe He meant for us to learn it within our families.  Sometimes our families are broken by divorce. And when that happens it makes it hard for us to trust others.  We are often wounded and torn by the ravages of betrayal, rejection and abandonment.  The hardest part about moving on in our lives is Christ’s healing.  Part of that healing begins with forgiveness.  It is Christ who taught us that we should not hold grudges against our brother and to forgive no matter what. Otherwise how can our Father in Heaven forgive us?  That is easier said than done when your heart is breaking from a hurtful word or action.  We all have been in a place of heartache and sorrow.   Some more deeper than others.  It is what we choose do with that pain and sorrow that will determine whether God will use it or not.  What He prefers to use in my life may not necessarily be used for the same lesson in another’s life but maybe perhaps He has something totally different in mind.

As I look at these pictures I think of where we started from and my heart is overwhelmed with gratefulness that He brought our families together for without them our lives would not have been as full. Only when we get to heaven will we see the beautiful thing He wove within each of our individuals lives because of knowing each other.

There is a saying that I use on my Guest book and I think it is appropriate here

Are you a reason, a season or a lifetime? 

  • there are those that God brings into your life for a specific reason and then they are gone
  • there are those that God brings into your life for a specific period of time, ie. a month, a year or a season of life and then they are gone
  • and then there are those whom God gives you for a lifetime. They are with you through all the journeys. The mountaintops, the plateaus and even the valleys.

Grace to you

Shell

Remembering A Birthday

GrpaThis is my grandfather.  He served in the Army Air Corp.  During WWII he flew on bombing raids in Germany.  And also spent time in Folgia, Italy.  He told stories about those days and he has pictures of his buddies and the places he had been assigned.  I didn’t hear the stories until I was much older and in the Air Force myself.  I appreciated the place in history he held for his service. Several years ago I made him a scrapbook album with pictures of he and my grandmother when they first met.  They were very young when they married.  The pictures are very beautiful…a picture of them holding each other, sitting on a porch swing and one of them smiling at each other, several of my grandfather in his uniform.  I thought it was romantic.  It now reminds me of the song by Mark Shultz, "Walking Her Home".  They both passed away within several years of each other.  He would have been 87 on the 27th of June.  What makes remembering his birthday so special is that my sister, just gave birth to a baby boy…he was born on our grandfather’s birthday.  How cool is that?