Standing Still!

The birth of my grandchild put me on cloud nine.  Every picture I get, I am reminded of each one of the births of my own children.  The joy of meeting them for the very first time…it has also reminded me of how fast time goes.  And how each moment stands still in our minds.  The firsts that each one of us experience.  The the first child, first word, the first step, the first food, the first birthday,  the first loss, the first grandchild, oh my goodness, I could go on and on.  Tomorrow, Brodie will be 2 weeks old and already I have missed so much of his life being 1,144 miles away.  I am hoping that I can go out to visit in a couple of weeks, God willing.  Then I will get to hold him for the "first time".  That will be indescribable! Can’t wait for that very blessing.
I want that moment to stand still in my mind. I want God to put that picture in my heart as he did for Mary when she "pondered" the moments of her child, Jesus. Lately, it has been bitter/sweet for me. The moments standing still in my mind.  All the memories of the past…my children, my sister, my granparents and my life.  It has been overwhelming and am not sure what to do with all of them.  I have been giving them to God and asking for His perspective because mine is clouded by loss and failure, when I should be rejoicing over the precious blessings He has given to my family.  It must be the end-of-winters blues at least that is what I am telling myself.  So as the verse says in His Word…."Stand still and know that I am God."
I love another verse God gave to me today
"Lord, all my desire is before You; and my sighing is not hidden from you" Psalm 38:9
Isn’t that a wonderful prayer!
grace to you, shell

2 thoughts on “Standing Still!

  1. It is…
    My life had gotten to the point that it was plagued with loss.  Everywhere I looked, all I could see was loss, subtraction.  And the only reason I\’m telling you this is because you have increase.  There was no evidence of this for quite a few months after I first got saved.  But, gradually, little-by-little, this changed as day-by-day Jesus would wash me in the water of His Word.  Now I look around and all I can see is blessings.  All I can see is His goodness.  I look around and what I see tells me of His faithfulness and commitment to making every bitter thing sweet. 
    And all I did was stayed with the process – and even that was only made possible by His amazing grace!  So He gives the grace to stay with the process, and He makes it apparent that He is God, He is good, and He only has good things to give.
    So, there ya have it.  Just cling to the grace to stay with the process Jesus is taking you through, and He will see you through.
    The Lord is my shepherd.
    I shall not want.
    He makes me to lie down in green pastures.
    He leads me beside the still waters.
    He restores my soul.
    He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name\’s sake.
    Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
    I will fear no evil
    For thou art with me
    Thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me
    Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies
    Thou anointest my head with oil
    My cup runneth over
    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life
    And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
    Psalm 23

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