Holy Spirit sweeps through

It happened at church…I sensed the Holy Spirit sweep across the room like a gentle breeze!  A sweet old lady in our church who has been grieving the loss of her husband for several years was smiling and singing…she was clapping her hands.  She danced up the aisle to hug and kiss the song leader…She was acutally glowing with love for the Lord.  I couldn’t stop the smile that spread across my face.  I hadn’t been able to move past my pain and just listen to the music. To worship Him without remembering the disappointments.  But it happened. I made the choice to heal, to let God have His way in all of it.  I stepped out, I greeted others, hugged them and was genuinely free to express my joy at being in my church.  The music flowed and it seemed to me that everyone was smiling and singing…What a day of rejoicing! And we haven’t even got to Heaven yet!
It’s all about Him
Grace to you,

Healing for the Mind and Soul?

Healing for the Mind and Soul? What a concept!  I have been told over the last two years that it just takes time…in part it does take time, but I believe it takes more than that. It takes trust in God & action on our part. (like the crippled man laying by the pool) Trust can be hard if we have been hurt, betrayed or disappointed and action can be very hard if we are stuck with that pain which seems to go on and on!  I know those two things very well.

A true friend gave me the book "Healing Is A Choice" by Stephen Arterburn, he gives 10 Choices and 10 lies we tell ourselves to stay in a state of pain and sadness.  God has been preparing my heart to hear these truths and I am ready.  I want to get on with my life…I want to show my children what living is!  Living to glorify God! 

Just like they say in Texas "get ur done!"

Grace to you

“You Are Loved”

Today my daily calendar says "If we really comprehended the measure of the grace of God toward us, surely it would be easy for us to forgive others for the relatively small sins they have committed against us." (taken from "The Lord’s Prayer" audio cassette by EE)
The verse referenced is from Matthew 18:21-22
"Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him?’ …’I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.’"
I have often heard people say and I believe I, myself, have said it on numerous occasions, "I can’t forgive myself".  Why is it easier to forgive others and not ourselves?  No where in scripture does Jesus call us to forgive ourselves…He calls us to forgive others and to accept His forgiveness. 
If we truly forgive those who trespass against us and accept God’s forgiveness for our trespasses then there is no need to turn the focus on ourselves.  We are to
"Set our minds on things above, not on things of earth." Colossian 3:2
Amazing how that works!

Amazing Grace flows down…

What a beautiful song by Christy Nockels of Watermark "Grace Flows Down".  When I hear it, my heart soars.  God’s grace has definitely flowed down on my life and my families. If you knew the details of the last two years, on the outside looking in you might not think so but if you know God you would definitely know so.  He has delivered in the brink of moments, He has provided at my last minute, He has touched hearts invested in our family despite painful disappointments.  What a God we have.  I spent several moments last night in my "closet" crying out to Him, reading His Word as I cried, "Please, God help me help my children, they need supervision when I am at work, they need discipline when they do wrong, they need to see you in me, they need time I don’t seem to have, they need a father. You said you would be the father to the fatherless, please show them The Father"  Every verse said "I am the Lord, your God…after that each verse said what He will do.  I need to trust and believe…and when I do there is grace in that too.  Aw God, you are my God!

Magic through a child’s eyes!

My daughter will be sixteen in a couple of months.  She is a wonderful person.  I become critical of her sometimes when I see things in her character that do not enhance her beauty. Inside as well as outside.  Even after all she has been through, she has so much more strength and confidence about herself than I did at her age.   She knows what she wants to be when she graduates from high school.  I am so happy for her.  We got to go on a mother/daughter date last friday night.  We went to see the Broadway production of “The Lion King”.  She was like a little girl again…full of excitement and wonder!  It was a memorable evening for me as a mother.  To enjoy the pagentry and spectacle live and then also to be taken back, remembering her as a little girl watching the movie and singing the songs. (a little girl behind us talked through the whole show, identifying each character – that would have been her at that age) It was magic!

Taking the next step…

I was thinking about what my pastor said to me  about moving forward and the verse in Isaiah 57:13-14 came to mind… 
"When thou criest, let thy companies deliver thee; but the wind shall carry them all away; vanity shall take them: but he that putteth his trust in me shall possess the land, and shall inherit my holy mountain; And shall say, Cast ye up, cast ye up, prepare the way, take up the stumblingblock out of the way of my people." 
Those "obstacles or stumbling blocks" of pain and hurt have been keeping me from moving forward… as I went back to read the whole chapter I see how I need to take the next step.  That just happens to be our church theme this year "Taking Your Next Step"  God is so on time!
As I was thinking about all of this a friend called me at work and told me she had a dream last night and she felt like she needed to share it with me….the dream was about Joshua crossing the Jordan and the Priest standing in the water and the Lord pushing back the water so the children of Israel could walk across…she said she felt like the water was all of my problems and if I just take the first step then God would take care of the problems…push them back so to speak…
Then immediately this verse I used to claim popped into my mind…Isaiah 43:2
"When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee."
I just love how God works everything together for good! 
I am taking the next step, praising Him for all that is past, all that is today and all that will be tomorrow!
"Thank you, Lord for your mercy and grace to me"

Between a rock and a ?

Don’t you think there are times as a mother you are stuck between giving too much or giving too little?  Every decision I have made up to today could probably go on a list divided into catagories.  For example, Emotional, Practical, Impulsive and maybe even "Risky".  Have you ever tried to put your decisions on a list?  God says in His Word,
"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart, lean not unto thine own understanding, in all thy ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct thy paths" Prover 3:5-6
Notice He says "paths", more than one road or decision!
So if I had been trusting on Him and not leaning on my wisdom then somehow those decisions would have been directed by Him personally.  That would have certainly narrowed down the list.
Well I can’t worry about the past…I must give them all to the Lord for Him to take care of, even the decisions that were not directed by Him.  Ask forgiveness for leaving Him out and hope and pray for mercy and grace.  Afterall He also says that "He works all things together for good to them who love God to them who are called according to His purpose."
So basically I am back to Trusting in the Lord…so I guess you could say that we, who are His, are stuck between the Rock and what ever hard place we happen to be in, in any given moment!

Giving away…

Saturday I gave my son away…to be married.  He married Rachel.  The ceremony was sweet. The Pastor’s words were touching and the scripture was powerful.  As I watched and listened my heart was breaking with bitter/sweet memories of the little boy that I gave birth to.  He was happy and excited about every aspect of life. I believe he still carries that quality.  There is an optimist there in his heart as well.  I pray that this quality wins out more as he lives out his future. I also pray they both make it, against all odds. God that is the desire of my heart for them…That you work all things together for good to them, Lord, whom you have called according to your purpose.  They are your children!  Bless them and keep them, amen!